I hate being ME

I am sick and tired of being me. i dont understand why ME cant seem to finish doing my work, and why i cant have the hackcare attitude? Why i do always feel that i am buried in work? For the first time in my life, i actually have to work during CNY! CNY hols seem to be the time i should do my catch up in work. What kind of life am i living?

I am sick of looking at the fat me too. I am also sick of me alone. I am confused. I dont know what is left of me that's good. I am fat, not smart, EQ is low, scared of lotsa of things (height, coachroach, toiletbowl, shit and lots more!), i dont like to talk to strangers and find it difficult to hold a conversation with someone whom i am not familiar with.

I dont know whats my purpose of life. Am i into my mid life crisis so soon? I really feel like letting go of everything and just sulk in a corner until i can find my purpose of life but i dont have the courage to do that.

Should i plan my April trip so that i can go away and have a tot on this?... i wonder